There's this cute thing I do where I overreact and lower my self esteem into the negatives. I feel like it's just a girl thing. Or an ovulating girl thing, idk. Or a my long time bf is smarter than me so it seems like he never needs me for anything except.. well.. you know.
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I feel like Jane Eyre and he's Rochester. It's difficult understanding why he's with me in the first place. I'm clingy and whiney and all that womenly shit, but at the same time, I like feeling needed or clung too. He's just completely independent. I'm just here for baby making and making his arm look good and the apparent happiness he gets when he's needed -_-. I don't know how that feels, but I want it.
Ok. So he's taking his entrance exam shit for college and he asked me for help in the french a few weeks ago. I was too excited :\ Tonight, he tells me he did it, filling in random shit,.. cus he's probably not gonna take french or is gonna take a hella easy class. W/e.. He never asks for help. So I was all like ... dun dun dun dun dun dun katchowww, he needs me, and he's not horny woohoo.. and then... Pfttttttttt. Jk. You're still only used for biologic situations. HAHAHAHA.
I know sex isn't all why he likes me, but for once, why can't he come to me. Why doesn't he have problems :( I know that's selfish, but there's no clear evidence to why he even sticks around. For once, why can't he be like "hey. im sad, listen to my problems that have depth and aren't limited the shallowness of how sucky and artist is cus i have no will to click the 'next' button, oh no!" or "Come keep me company because I want you to and I won't have urges within 5 minutes that changes the conversation to 'ugh, im horny' that in turns invokes one letter responses out of you 'k.'" For once, why can't he not be condescending and call me cute, silly, retarded, stupid, weird.. and laugh at me like I'm 5 and act like everything I say is a joke. Why can't he understand :\ Why does he keep acting like I don't mean the things I say.. I wish he'd stop responding like a therapist.. "Oh, I wonder where that stems from." This shit aint problems with my childhood asshole, it's with you. Stop avoiding shit -_-
Maybe i complain all the time because I'm unsatisfied with my position in this relationship to the point where I sorta just gave up..
Am I overreacting? Should I just shutup and be happy he even stays? Stupid women problems -_-
I think I'm just overreacting. I'll go stuff my ego elsewhere now.
Awkward:
I feel like Jane Eyre and he's Rochester. It's difficult understanding why he's with me in the first place. I'm clingy and whiney and all that womenly shit, but at the same time, I like feeling needed or clung too. He's just completely independent. I'm just here for baby making and making his arm look good and the apparent happiness he gets when he's needed -_-. I don't know how that feels, but I want it.
Ok. So he's taking his entrance exam shit for college and he asked me for help in the french a few weeks ago. I was too excited :\ Tonight, he tells me he did it, filling in random shit,.. cus he's probably not gonna take french or is gonna take a hella easy class. W/e.. He never asks for help. So I was all like ... dun dun dun dun dun dun katchowww, he needs me, and he's not horny woohoo.. and then... Pfttttttttt. Jk. You're still only used for biologic situations. HAHAHAHA.
I know sex isn't all why he likes me, but for once, why can't he come to me. Why doesn't he have problems :( I know that's selfish, but there's no clear evidence to why he even sticks around. For once, why can't he be like "hey. im sad, listen to my problems that have depth and aren't limited the shallowness of how sucky and artist is cus i have no will to click the 'next' button, oh no!" or "Come keep me company because I want you to and I won't have urges within 5 minutes that changes the conversation to 'ugh, im horny' that in turns invokes one letter responses out of you 'k.'" For once, why can't he not be condescending and call me cute, silly, retarded, stupid, weird.. and laugh at me like I'm 5 and act like everything I say is a joke. Why can't he understand :\ Why does he keep acting like I don't mean the things I say.. I wish he'd stop responding like a therapist.. "Oh, I wonder where that stems from." This shit aint problems with my childhood asshole, it's with you. Stop avoiding shit -_-
Maybe i complain all the time because I'm unsatisfied with my position in this relationship to the point where I sorta just gave up..
Am I overreacting? Should I just shutup and be happy he even stays? Stupid women problems -_-
I think I'm just overreacting. I'll go stuff my ego elsewhere now.
You aren't overreacting, boo. You know what I think about him and it's not my place to say that here.
ReplyDeleteHave you tried talking to him? Saying how you feel? If you have and he hasn't listened to you, it's his loss.
You can always refuse his wants, ya know. It's your choice, your body. You can always just say, "bathroom's over there" instead of "k".